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[bloodofithuriel]

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[lightwoodnephilim]

Yeah. That's how I feel. I know the me there ends up with Magnus, but I don't know if it lasts, I don't know how I feel there or if I moved on from you or just put it away. Here I don't have to. Here I have him and you. And John's here. I'll never have him there. Or Caliban, or Erik or any of the other friends I've made or people I've been with. I hate a lot about this place. But I still choose it.

I love you too, but not an answer.

[bloodofithuriel]

Good. Now just stop feeling guilty about that fact and you'll be fine. Which, I mean, you're Alec, guilt is what you do, but still.

Nope, it's not!

[lightwoodnephilim]

That's kind of rich coming from you you know. But yeah. I'm doing better, I don't spend hours every night making lists of all my failings I need to fix anymore.

So answer.

[bloodofithuriel]

I'm learning to embrace my hypocrisy.

I... Angel. Alec.

Ok where are you I need to hug you now.

Hmmm No thanks!

[lightwoodnephilim]

You might really be in the right city then, that's this place's favorite thing.

It's not as bad as it sounds, it's just how I got to sleep. But I'm on the roof.

[bloodofithuriel]

Gee, thanks.

Ugh. Of course.

[lightwoodnephilim]

What do you mean, of course?

[bloodofithuriel]

You and your love of heights and a bird's eye view, Alec, my Alec. I should have just looked there first.

Nothing bad. Honest.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Things make more sense when you can get a larger view.

[bloodofithuriel]

[It was such an Alec thing to say, and it made Jace happy and sad at the same time.]

I know, my Alec. You're fine up there, you always are.

[lightwoodnephilim]

Yeah. You can come be fine with me though.

[bloodofithuriel]

Oh I can, huh? Well thank you so much for the permission. Ha. Kidding. I was coming anyways.

On my way.